"Please. Just give me a chance to explain. This is just a horrible misunderstanding. If you'll just..."
"Shut up."
"What? No. Look, I know you're angry. You have every right to be."
"Don't. touch. me."
"Rek..."
"...whatever. It doesn't matter. Just get away from me."
"Love, please..."
"No. I'm done. It's over. There is nothing you could possibly say. Deaf ears. You had your chance, chances even. I can't deal with it anymore. You don't understand how it breaks me inside. I sit here and fight with my good sense over giving you chance after chance at the risk of being hurt, and you throw it back in my face. Well, no more. I will not open myself to more harm. I have learned my lesson. I'd like to hope you learned yours, but it was hoping that got me into this mess in the first place. Shame on me if you fool me twice, right? I'm done. Go away. Find some other unsuspecting being to rot out from the inside. Just...go away."
"..."
"What? The great, ostentacious Muir has nothing to say? No snide remarks? Indignant justifications? Nothing? I guess you never knew how to fight for anything though, huh? Or was I just so unimportant?"
"God, love..."
"He speaks, yet says nothing."
"..."
"Not the time for humour? Throw me a bone here. I'm trying to make it through this without breaking. Crumpling like some silly fool, while you remain so obviously unaffected...I promised myself...I don't want to cry. I'm done losing tears over you. But you always did force my hand...make me break promises...suck more from me than I had to give."
"It kills me to see you cry."
"Well, I suppose that's something. Enjoy dying. It doesn't hurt so much once everything goes numb, if it's any consolation."
"Are you really that certain? So ready to throw out our everything? Over this? Are you..."
"Don't. you. dare. As if this were a whim. As if I hadn't spent every waking, every BREATHING, LIVING moment agonizing over this damn descision. This isn't about making a choice anymore Muir. This is self preservation. I literally cannot subsist on hope. I cannot spend every moment of my life holding myself together. The effort is too great. I don't have it in me. I thought I did, once upon a time. I thought I was strong. But I was wrong; You proved me wrong. You win."
"Where are you going?"
"Away."
"...?"
"Forgive me for not being more forthcoming. I might contemplate giving you a real answer except I don't know. I'm leaving. Getting the hell out of Dodge. Taking space to see if I can remember how to breathe."
"How long will you be gone?"
"As long as I need to be."
"...are you coming back?"
"..."
"I want you to come back."
"...you can't always have everything you want."
"I need you to come back."
"A little late in coming. That might have benefitted more in recent weeks."
"I know, just...just hear me out. Please. I need you to come back. I'll never stop needing you to come back. I realize you might be gone for a very long time. I realize you might never come back. And after everything, that's your right. It has always been your right. If you decide, if you chose to come back, I'll be here. I need you to know that. Even if you never come back - if you go and make a life for yourself, and grow old, happy and whole and satisfied, I will still be here. Waiting for you. Needing you. Loving you. Because there is no one else. There never has been. We were made for each other; within us resides the infinite possibility of the universe. It may not be perfect. It may not always be good, even, but it will always be the most. The fullest of what we can be. It's what I was made to seek - what you were made of."
"...Muir."
"Even if it weren't for that. I would wait. And I would love you. I am sorry. I am sorry for everything I have ever done to harm you or upset you. I apologize now for anything I might do. I do not deserve you. I don't expect you to stay. But I need you to. And though I don't deserve you, you are the only one good enough."
"If you only meant it."
"There aren't words for what I mean. Those are what I have, so they'll have to do."
"I'll take what you can give. I'll take everything you have."
"I'll give it willingly."
"And if it isn't enough?"
"I'll give you more."
"..."
"So. I'll see you around?"
"Maybe."
"Eventually?"
"Maybe. Eventually."
"I love you."
"Goodbye."